Well I grew up as a kid going to our family cabin just after Christmas. We would ride on sleds, snow mobiles, x-country ski, you name we tried it. It was fun!

I grew up wanting to pass those memories down to my kids. And for a few years we got the chance to. But the past couple years and most of my daughters life I haven't been able to do this for my family.
Well my in-laws haven't been well. The past few years things have really been getting worse. It is hard because they are both so young but they both are medically not good. Last Christmas we had to put my mother-in-law in the hospital. That was really scarry for my kids.

This year we have delayed coming down for Thanksgiving because she had been in the hospital again. So we came down at Christmas instead. Things just aren't so wonderful. It isn't the Christmas I wanted for my family & my kids.

It's hard when your son is telling you that he remembers things we use to do and asks why we don't anymore. When he asks why his grandparents are sick. It makes me want to just cry. But i feel so much in the middle because I want to do these things with my family and give them great memories. But i want my husband to be with his parents too. Plus, I have such a big caring heart I just hate seeing them like this. I know they need it & enjoy seeing the kids. I just wish sometimes we didn't have such a big honey-do list and a wish list that was so huge. But that is what we have to deal with & I hope someday our kids know why & the choices we have had to make are all for them & family.